When the dust begins to settle all hopes of connecting to him were also fading away.
Around this time, she started craving for closure and the need to know the truth behind his indifference. She felt he owes her an apology for ripping her soul into pieces.
By anticipating closure, truth or apology from him she was yet again setting herself for failure. She needed to burst this bubble of anticipation as it could pose a potential threat to her recovery.
Today, she acknowledges the basic truth that he moved away because he didn’t feel the same connection with her and she was giving closure to herself.
She was also saying sorry to herself, not for getting drawn to him, but for not being able to exit on time.