She has been the inhabitant of the grey area of life – an area that exists between the predefined societal ‘Dos’ and ‘Don’ts’. For her what you should and shouldn’t do were mainly governed by the diverse situations and her ability to look at things subjectively.
With passing time it became nearly impossible to segregate life in the extreme brackets of ‘either and or.’ Perhaps that’s what refrained her from instantly judging anyone including him although, she initially did fall prey to the set thinking of ‘Dos’ and ‘Don’ts’. Even when the separation was constantly stinging her and acting on the impulse of lashing out at him seemed like the right thing to do, she abstained from creating an emotional scene.
It not only saved him from humiliation but had also prevented her from publicly making a fool out of herself.
When her heart was in tatters and was desperately seeking some comfort, she went ahead with a tub of double choco-chip ice cream and a bar of Lindt dark chocolate although it falls in the ‘don’t’ category of healing.
Lethargy was another no-no that she said yes to. ‘Sleeping it off’ acted like a balm on her nerve-racking emotions.
She was mindful that polarised thinking urges us to come out of denial and take a leap at a conclusion to kick-start the recovery.
But, she knew healing is not a linear and instant process and she took her time to brood before concluding anything.
Her ‘grey’ thinking gave her time to assess her deeper reflective inner dialogues that told her to ‘suck it up’ because that was the only way forward.