She didn’t know that parting ways from him would be so hard but not having anyone to share her excruciating pain made it even harder. Loneliness is the fixed byproduct of a breakup, but the trauma goes to another level if besides bearing the heartbreak you also have to put up a façade of ‘nothing happened’. It’s been little over four months since they drifted apart and since then she has been carrying an emotional storm buried deep inside her without dropping a slight hint to anyone.
It was common knowledge that confiding in someone is capable of dipping the separation anxiety, but she felt it was unlikely for anyone to comprehend her botched connection with him.
This thought had not only restricted her from reaching out for support but had also compelled her to act ‘normal’ around her loved ones and carry out the mundane activities with an injured soul.
There were days when she wanted to scream in pain and cry her heart out but she kept operating like a robot on an auto-pilot mode. Perhaps that prolonged her stay in the distressing place and forbade her from admitting the bitter truth of rejection.
Around the time when her lingering sadness was receding, she casually mentioned about her spilt to one of her coworkers and was pleasantly surprised how much better she felt. This made her wonder whether by denying a support system to herself had she dragged the overwhelming pain far too long and derailed her healing.