Every day had turned out to be a drag with her badly bruised and battered soul. The separation had made her emotionally hit rock bottom with a loud thud.
But, even with her smashed self, she wasn’t seeking his kindness because kindness is for sick and dying.
Her eyes were narrating the brutal story of parting and how she wished to be read by him.
But, the next moment the thought was rejected when she recalled the words of a mystic – “You don’t want to be liked by anyone out of kindness. It doesn’t get you respect and acceptance.” Admiration centred out of kindness is not genuine as it’s based on sympathy, which cannot bind two people together for long.
She wanted to be looked at as someone who has taken life head-on and is resilient not as someone naïve and pathetic who requires kindness.
All the other pieces of her life, like her career and social circle, were either based on competence or her self-reliant persona. Empathy was never treated as the criteria to form an intimate bond.
While mulling over her broken state, she felt there wasn’t any need of kindness because once you hit a rock bottom then the only way to go around is coming up.